Moving From Traumatized Scapegoat to Becoming my G.O.A.T Version!
How? I loved myself free one little bit at a time, a moment, hour and day at a time. It's a gentle spiral, not a straight line.
I allowed those people who were not for me to talk smack about me behind my back if they didn't like me or what I was doing. That's about them, not me anyway. I trusted life and those that were meant to be in it, would be no matter what. I'm made from star dust. So are you. "We don't know how you do what you do, but it seems like magic." I've heard this many times throughout my life. "What you touch seems to turn to gold." or, "I feel inspired when I'm around you." Ideas and creativity come to me easily and naturally. Intuition guides my every move. People tell me I have good energy. I have insights and dream visions for the highest potential of people and situations. This is my secret sauce. Sharing it with others is my passion. I struggled for most of my life with these gifts because I didn't understand how I was able to do these things. I wanted to be like everyone else. So the less I accepted myself and my own magnificence, the more I was unconsciously giving others permission to take it from me. The sustained emotional and spiritual abuse I have experienced in my life, though deeply painful, ultimately gave me both the inner strength and the wisdom to embark on a long healing journey of self reclamation. I created AnuBel while navigating the turbulence of facing my own shadow side and healing what felt like a bottomless pit of pain. Believing in my dreams, giving voice to my creative essence, creating, connecting with others on soulful levels and trusting my intuition are what kept me going throughout my own journey. Prior to embarking on this journey, I had arrived at a point where I was envious of my own clients since I was using my natural talents and acquired skills to help them achieve their dreams while seriously neglecting my own. I had co-dependent and people-pleasing tendencies to heal, a pathetically low sense of self worth to rebuild, and also some serious blockages to self love. The adventure of creating this work was both terrible and amazing. When I took that initial leap of faith, I was supported by life in the most unexpected and unusual ways. Following my heart, I kept going even during the most challenging times and always landed on my feet. I was motivated by a desire to reach the end of my life without regrets for settling for comfort or security and never going for what I really wanted. My life looked pretty good on the outside yet it did not feel great on the inside. I was not yet fulfilled. Rather, I had spent far too much time in my life as the scapegoat taking on the projections of other people's dark emotional crap and confusing it as my own. I loved to cheer on others to achieve their potential as it is quite natural for me. Yet until I developed the strength to have good boundaries and balance, I often attracted people with whom I created unbalanced relationships. The adventure of life is a creative one filled with highs, lows and in-between for all of us. One thing is for certain, life is going to unfold anyway, so we might as well be on a adventure of our own choosing rather than just letting life happen to us. Believing in ourselves and never giving up on our dreams is actually the secret ingredient to achieving them. Otherwise we might end up in someone else's nightmare! Been there. Done that. In earlier versions of myself, I spent decades in financial services fulfilling various roles overseeing national marketing campaigns and product launches that yielded breakthroughs and significant growth for employers and clients. I believe we are currently in the midst of a significant growth cycle in consciousness for humanity whereby we need to refocus our attention on the truth in our hearts our love rather than the constant survival focus on money. The old structures created in fear and survival consciousness for money are falling away in favor of more evolved systems and structures created for the benefit of all. I know from my own experiences that facing significant changes in our lives requires courage to face the fear of the unknown and develop an entirely new perspective that can feel wobbly for a while. We've all got the old programs and conditioning to work through plus some stale emotions. That's when we need some help in the form of encouragement, another perspective and someone who believes in our potential without attachment to any particular outcome. If that person is you, feel free to reach out: adventureswithanubel@gmail.com |
Work Experience |
I was a marketing executive for decades working for Fortune 100 and 500 financial services companies, then ventured out on my own as a consultant. I've worked at startups and owned a direct marketing agency. As a certified life coach, I have worked with artists, executives, business owners, and teams to help them achieve their next level dream or higher version of themselves.
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Education |
I hold Bachelor of Arts degree from UCLA, Master of Arts degree in Transpersonal Psychology from John F. Kennedy University and am a Certified Life Coach through the International Coach Federation.
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